DearDiary
dear diary
I will update this diary uncetainly.It depends on what the situation of daytime.If i am not busy,i will write down the story about my experince today.
2023/07/07
dear diary,today is friday,i come back to my howntown which called QuanZhou.Now i am on the railway train.i cost $104 for the ticket.cause i got no secondary seats for me.My English career is not so well.Even i passed the 4 level exam.Nowadays i want immigrate to Canada.That will be a long-term trip for me.I know my lifetime is just once.I just wonder how my life will be and waht is the future for me.I don’t need the sorrow destiny,that’s why i make the decision for going oversea.So,god please bless me,for the way i will walk
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- One Last Glimpse(Original Remix) - South Pole
- Moments(Roald Velden Remix) - Yusuke teranishi
2023/07/10
dear diary,today i am gonna take the railway to come back to FuZhou,i think i have leanrt some course today,i know that humans all got the sin,but i was always be in traps of those man,just cause i was believe about them by myself,i wish i get the spirit of Juses,but the Juses means about suffering,the road of that is hard,i am tired about this,so what,i should still keep on it,go straight and walk along,if god promise that i will marry with the other one,i must appriciate about that,this is my life,right?just be yourselves.Yeah,but my dream is just to be at peace all the time.Is that hard?But i can’t explain this,that’s why i often sigh about my exprience.This fucking life.Maybe after i die,i will be released.I look forward about it on the future.
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- Moments(Starlit Night Mix)
- Into The Time
2023/07/12
dear diary,today i am move to the oppsite seat beside the XLH,this was really bad news for me,i am so doubt about i will be watched by it,and the seat is behind the XH,they will both monitor the others,i am so tired about that,chill for the every moment,it make me sick.but i have no right to contradict with it,he just like the beast to me,shit about this.
2023/07/17
dear diary,today is a new week,i don’t know the plan of father at me,but i just know that he love us forever,there is one thing we can do is we must believe him,yeah.ok,today i ganna to make my plan for the learning of english,i wanna use the work time to improve my english level,right!If i don’t prepare for my future,who cares about that?So just come on,do everything you can,and just be yourself.Face the challenge of life and overcome it.Fighting!!!
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- Innocent Beauty
- Soleil
- Somewhere in this moment
2023/07/18
dear diary,this month is very expensive,i have spend much money in this month.but my plan is keep on going,i am proud of that.now i am start listening practice and i find one way to improve my hearing level what is listen to the IELTS exam module of listening,and listen it carefully.Today i talk about the feature of my company,i am not agree with what he said,the team leader’s behaviour is not the good habit,but we can’t change that,so just let it go.i just need to do what i should do.Be yourself.Fighting!
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- 세렌디피티(情缘)
- 미래 (Future)
- 푸른꽃 (Blue Flower)
2023/07/20
dear diary,yesterday i was going to party with the others,we ate,talked and laughed,that’s a great exprience for us.And we came back until after 11:00pm.Today i will prepare for the thought sharing tomorrow,and i should practice about listening.I can feel my target now.Just do it.God bless me.I just wanna strive to my life,and my life is honor you all the time.Cause our every step with your grace.
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- Summer Peace(Roald Velden Remix)
2023/07/21
dear diary,today this fuck leader had got the work for me,this man is insane all the time,i’m really not regrad it as a normal guy.There are not fortunate day recent.It’s gonna feel doult about this.I have no idea.And i have to worry about the acommadation.Cause the lease is going to expire.I know,shit happens.Hope that tommorrow will be better.
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- August Peace
2023/07/24
dear diary,today i’m strive to developing big screen for the task of son of bitch!!!That insane one just like animal always make everyone feel bad.It is very disgusting.There’s another one thing is just i need to relocated my house.It will be one tired thing for me.God bless me.I just want to have peace life and upgrow my english level for the immigration.Come on!!!I can do it.
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- Moments(Roald Velden Remix)
2023/07/31
daer diary,after typhoon,FuJian was lost a lot,the people is suffering,thank god,i didn’t harmed by this disaster,i was appreciate that.But the life is still keep on going.Sun is rise,we must face those fucking things by ourselves.We have no choice about that.This insane group leader is just one beast.I’m always tormented by him.This fuck guy will doom to horrible death.HaHaHa.Ok,Let’s strive to earn money,and be brave to walk first step for the immigration.Come on and Fighting!
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- When Nature is Awaking
- Summer Peace(Roald Velden Remix)
2023/8/1
dear diary,today this fucking XLH is going crazy,he look like beast,i really can’t understand that this insane sub-human can be the leader of group,it was a sad story of this company,this fuck up guy should doom to hell.It just made me sick in the morning,screw you.Shit!
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This time is just for vent,no music.Aim to angry.
2023/8/2
dear diary,i gotta make a decision for my job,i know this fucking insane guy will make us suffer more.I really don’t want to be torment by him,but i have to worry about the money about tommorrow,that’s such a joke,i am still not confident about the godness,fahter said we don’t need to worry about the food of tommorrow,but i am always consider it by myself,that’s my fault,please forgive me,father.I pray it for you.I was dreaming about the worthy life,but now i just want to have a peace life.why is that so hard?Father,bless me please.I need your help.
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- Moments(Starlit Night Mix)
2023/8/3
dear diary,that’s a common day today,i was so doult about this life,but i can’t give up,i need to strive for my future,i wanna immigration to the civil country,i am always dream about it,it worth to fight for.Now i should find one way out and improve my english skill.i have to pass the IELTS at first.Father bless me,i just wanna to have a peace life.i gotta spend time on practice english.Go ahead!
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- Here Always
2023/8/4
dear diary,i was late yesterday,so i woke up early today and ready to go quickly.I need to tell the insane beast that i should ask for one day vocation for next monday.i gotta go to hongkong.Father bless us,i wish we will have a good trip.Enjoy the life.Pray for it,Amen.
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- Keep me busy
2023/8/8
dear diary,i went to the HongKong last week,that was a great tour for me,first i left the country,i felt about some kind of freedom,it was amazing.When i first arrived there,i was very happy.So i am writing down this exprience.i wish one day i could going outside and feel about the civilization of the world.It must be gorgeous.
Background Music
- Into The Time
- Reception(Soty & Seven24 R.I.B Remix)
- Watching The Sunset(AKI Amano Remix)
2023/8/9
dear diary,today i have completed the two parts of listening exam,i found that i am still not get used to this speed of talk,i can’t keep up my mind with those conversation,that’s the problem of me.It’s a shame,now i need to find the difficult thing definitely and overcome it.Come on and fight for it.And i reset the new favorite song that i aim to it.This song is Welcome to New York,Yep,just like what she sang,It’s been waiting for you,i believe that New York is like that.And one day i will hear this greet by meself and it won’t be so long.
Background Muisc
- Style
- Welcome To New York
2023/8/10
Dear diary,today i had a communication with the others about the gender problem.I wasn’t get used to the sexual painting behaviour of brick land.But that guy think i am a narrow person.I don’t agree with that.Maybe they are more knowledgeable.But i am growing always.Who knows?What’s gonna happen tomorrow.Just try my best to prepare for the immigration.Be brave and come back to your lifestyle,Keeping on going!
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- Reception(Soty & Seven24 R.I.B Remix)
2023/8/11
dear diary,today is friday,we have to say something to HaiJing due to he and his wife is gonna to NingBo.It is a pity.They are the part of us.We always be together.But now they will leave.We still bless them.That’s very good.And this is a peace day,i gotta strive to improve my english level,there is no more time for wasting.Just do it!!!
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- Summer Peace(Roald Velden Remix)
2023/8/15
dear diary,It’s a normal day today.Just working and back home.Nothing else happened.But i think that’s very good.It means peaceful day is around me.And i purchase a new IPhone 13 Pro Max for myself.It is from the America.I want to avoid the block of firewall.So i need to regist the American ESIM phone number.Well,i can feel more closer to the freedom.Thank god,god bless me,Please.I believe tomorrow will be better.
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- 푸른꽃 (Blue Flower)
- Style
2023/8/16
dear diary,today is still a normal day,i found that i don’t spend much time on learning english,it is a terrible thing,time is elapsing.I must strive harder.I don’t have too much time.God,Bless me,Amen.
Backgroud Music
- Here Always
- Welcome To New York
2023/8/17
dear diary,today is still a normal day,i’m worried about the body and my action,today i was late fot the work,what the fuck,i really don’t want to do this.but i am sleep over.shit!And i need to think how to arrive ZhuHai.This is a hard choice for me.God bless me.I need father to light up my road,i want to participant that party for the couples.I believe it will give me different exprience on my life time.Holding on,Come and get it.I can do it!!!
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- A Thousand Years
- You Are My Sunshine
2023/8/18
dear diary,today is friday,i wanna go back home,i have a lot things to do.I have spent so much money recently.For the training,tours,device an so on.Now my wallet is empty,i’am so sad about that.But well,all of these are necessary for me.I feel that i won’t regret.And i believe that my life will more and more better.Come on,enjoy the life and spoil ourselves for a while.—>Now,i’m on the railway train for home,i am so boring,the network is sucks,it couldn’t connect to the celluer,shit about this,and i am listening to the song call future,this song really courage me a lot.Thanks for the author and the composer.
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- 푸른꽃 (Blue Flower)
- Inot The Time
- Dream Catcher
- Future
2023/8/22
dear diary,i have made the shadow reading yesterday night,i could feel it worked.And i made a plan on my thoughts.I thought i should recite the words 800 one day and do the shadow reading for one topic a day.This may cause some inconvenient for me,but i must to get used to it,i don’t have too much time now.How time flying~Come on,make it better everyday.
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- 바라만 본다 (Just Watching You)
- Into The Time
- Hold Me Down
- Rememberable
2023/8/23
dear diary,today i was going to tackle something personal problem in the noon time,after i had the lunch,the fucking down pour was coming,i was got wet.Shit!!!This strange weather make me feel tired.But that’s ok,i took a great shower.It just relaxed me.I must prepare for the exam of IELTS.I must work harder.Now i’m practice about the listening topic.I hope it would work.I give out everything to god.Need your help,Father!!!
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- 미래(Future)
- Dream Catcher
- Tides
2023/8/24
dear diary,today i got a lot of things to resolve.I have to purchase the Google Voice Account and register the okex Account.Futher more i gotta to review the words and do listen practice with shadow reading,That’s a really true day.I am so busy recently.But i feel so great,it means that i am growing,i aim to make the progress a bit everyday.I believe i can achieve my immigration one day.Come on!!!
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- You And I
- Catch My Breath
2023/8/25
dear diary,today i have some thing to do,so i don’t got the time to do the listening practice for my learning.I’m just want to have a rest for myself.And charge the energy for me,then ready to strive for the next week.Come on!!!I can do it.And i have tried a lot of ways to push the code for github.com,that’s a shame,but i made it.
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- 빛과 그림자 (Light And Shadow)
- I
2023/8/28
dear diary,today is not so good,i have the new work to handle with.but i should improve my own English ability with much more time.That’s really a sad story,and i haven’t made a conclusion for my last class.Oh shit!I have to be hurry about that.I have played the earlier game called heroes of might and magic last day.That’s my child hood.I like that~HAHA.But back to the reality,i have to keep up with my process of english learning.Come on,Father please hold my hands and walk with me,i just wanna go to other civilzation country,but it seems not easy.However,i believe that god will guard my steps.Amen.
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- Castle Town
- Strong Hold
- Elem Town
- Combat 04
2023/8/29
dear diary,today i have got the opinion of learning english,i found my time is urgent.I have not so much time to waste.There’s a lot trouble i have to handle.Just make me brave,father.I need your help.I’m even think about to quit for my job.Concentrater to learning the english.But i don’t know is it right or not.Tonight i wanna pray for it,maybe i will receive a sign to enlight me.I must make the decision for myself.Be careful!!!
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- 바라만 본다 (Just Watching You)
- 상처는 아름다운 흔적이 되어 (Scars leave beautiful trace)
- 아리운 (Aching)
2023/8/30
dear diary,i have called my uncle last night,i talked with him about the future plan of myself.There’s a lot of trouble i have to resolve and that truth makes me so worry about.I preyed last night before sleeping.I wish i will be blessed by god in this way to imigrate.I think that’s very important for me.And i was searching the information about all the prepare of study abroad.I am suffering the pressure.But i believe i can do it.That’s my decision.I shouldn’t give up~Just fight for it!!!
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- Over my Head
- golden hour
- shadow(Lessov Remix)
2023/8/31
dear diary,today i have a to-do list for solving.I spent more than two hours with english class last night.I have to reset my learning plan now.The vocabulary should be updated and enlarged.And i gotta listen and read the 6 minute English.I must improve my reading speed.That’s very important for me to complete the answer.But i should spend more time on these things.That’s why i consider about quiting my job.That’s a heavily decision for me.If i do that,i have to pay a lot for it that includs my emotions.I have to face the pressure of my parents and the other kins.Just give me brave and power.i need your help,Father.Amen!
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- Find our way
- Viva la Vida
- day by day
- over my head
2023/9/1
dear diary,i have maden a practice for last night,the process was very bad,but i found that i’ve achieved a lot progress in that.I’m pleased with it.Just keep up with learning and strive for my goal.I believe the future will better day by day.I need to bare the pressure i would face.That’s the cost of my decision.And i wish that the father will bless me as well.Hallelujah,Amen!!!
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- I
- Hallelujah
2023/9/4
dear diary,i played heroes 3 recently,I have to wake up and notice that i have no much time for wasting.So sad,i know time is elapsing but i don’t get a high caution about it.I need to prepaer for the english test and concenrate to it.Even this time,the fucking brute is try to put more work on me.I don’t want to pay my attention to him.Fine,just cheer myself.For the best future!!!
Background Music
- 미래 (Future)
- Welcome to New York
- Style
- Here Always
2023/9/7
dear diary,my mom had come to see me recent days when the typhoon is influencing the weather,i was not really in good status.And i didn’t practicing positively.That is a bad news for me.I have to hurry up for the learning process.Last night i didn’t have the english class cause my english teacher’s new house was flooded,there was so heavy rainfall,so many places in FuZhou were flooded.So my mom can’t back to home then stay here with me.And she was go back just now.Now i should come back to my original way of life.Keep up improving my english~come on,hope that father will bless me with my runing way.Last ting,i have finished watching the drama called 《Uncontrollably Fond》,that is a sad love story for one couple.It really moved me,i droped tears for many times.But i still think that is a great drama and worth watching and praising.
Background Music
- The End(Drama Edit)
- Some Day(某天)
- Chaos
- Across The Ocean
- A little Braver
2023/9/8
dear diary,today i decide not to join group activty with the others,cause i will be very busy for next week,i wanna have a long travel for the party of connection of lovers.That’s the main gist of next week for me,and i cost a lot for that.But i can’t forget my most important purpose of immigration.I have to improve my english level,and i get a little progress for this.Now i need to be hurry,there’s no more words to say.Just come on the fight for it.That’s why i make a decision of having class and not to join group activty.Forgive me,Father.
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- Across The Ocean
- Only U
- Main Menu
2023/9/11
dear diary,i have finished watching the K-drama
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- 문 (門)(The door)
- 공야 (空夜)(Lonely night)
- 드러나는 진실 (Unveiled Truth)
2023/9/12
dear diary,i have collected the information about taking air plane,i need to figure out what is limited in the air planes that my baggage won’t be blocked in airport.And tomorrow i gonna travel to ZhuHai,i wish i could have nice time at this vocation.Father please bless me with in this trip.I have watched so much unfair thing happened in the country,all i want is just to immigreat another civilization country and have a peace life,i believe i can achieve that.Just do it!!!
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- 공야 (空夜)(Lonely night)
- 문 (門)(The door)
- I’m Sorry
2023/9/13
daer diary,now i’m in the air plane,i wanna take the air to ZhuHai,this is my second time to take air plane in my life.So i got a little excited.I don’t have wealthy family,you know that.And i don’t get a higher salary job.My money can’t support me to travel oftenly.I believe this will be a good time,please bless my,father!!!I hope that i will be safe there and safe back.
2023/9/17
dear diary,welcome back,i have finished the travel for three days in ZhuHai.Now i’m in the air plane again,this is the back flight to FuZhou.I still have lots of works to do,these days are just for relaxing.It’s just like fall asleeping.But now i have to awake up and face the true life again.Maybe i am so weak,but i wanna to be more stronger and braver.do i have the chance?Father,we want your help.The darkness can’t cover the light.I believe that always.Come on,adjust my status and then take it easy.Low down the pressure.Just struggle with it.
2023/9/19
dear diary,It has passed two days from the activey end.I earned a lot from that experience.I was enjoying the time while i was serving the siblings.I could feel the god with us and our life have been updated.So i decide to share that for the siblings around me in FuZhou.I believe we can all gian something we want.We can relax from the god and be stronger to face the life.We wish our life can honor god all the time and live like god.
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- Over My Head
- Closer
- Across The Ocean
- 공야 (空夜)(Lonely night)
2023/9/20
dear diary,I have wrote the article for sharing in Friday with my siblings.I want to express my feeling on this trip to them,Wish that they will all gain something full from the god and holy ghost.Father always gives us more than what we need.We wanna follow his path and no longer worry about the other things.Cause he own this world,he is the lord and father of us.Please bless me with my sharing and growth.Hallelujah.
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- Need Somebody
- On My Head
2023/9/21
dear diary,i forgot pray last night,cause i was watch the K-drama called (Business Proposal).I think it is so funny that i keep watching it.But that is not a good sign,i have to keep a good status for learning and working at the daytime.I am still excite about the traval i have exprienced.It really helped me growing a lot.I hope i can let the spirit join my life.Just face the life stronger and braver.Fight for the future and don’t afraid or giving up.I believe father will hold our hands all the time with any situation.
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- Need Somebody
- On My Head
- Closer
2023/9/22
dear diary,today i told the leader that i have the thought about quiting.I have to squeeze more time for preparing the IELTS,i don’t have too much time for wasting.So i mentioned him directly.Just forget the thing behind me,and face the trueth and fight for it.Come on!!!Father,Please bless me with this road.I know it won’t be easy.I need your help.But i gotta to practice my self control,i can’t spend more time on playing video games.This is also good time for doing sport and improve myself.I need to lose my weight.And build the better health.Keep up with making progress everyday.This world is full of grace with god,we just need to find them.
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- Need Somebody
- 水凝墨剧情-RingBell
- 悬溺(笛子)
- On My Head
- Close
- Across The Ocean
- 공야 (空夜)(Lonely night)
2023/9/25
dear diary,i have told the beast i will quit after national festival,just follow the process and exchange the work to others.It is hard to make this decision.I should responsible to the next phase.I’m afraid i will not concentrate on learning english then playing the video games.That’s very terrible to me.I have to practice about self control.This is high threshold for me.Father,please bless me with my next road.
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- Sad Fate
- Magical Moment
- attack音D Ring Bell
2023/9/26
dear diary,after i said that i will quit after the national festival.I’m quit idle.And i want to learn more about deploy the V2Ray server for myself.Cause it will be more safer than i subscribe the other’s.But there is a lot difficult problem i have to conquer.And i did the listening practice last night,i discovered that i’m still not good at listening skills.So i must do more exam about IELTS and improve my vocabulary.That’s very important for me.When i search for the information about complete the deployment,i also found useful articles for me.If i figure out these technology,it will help me to grow a lot.Even the reading of english corpus.So i must keep up with learning and practicing.Don’t give up and strive to it.However,i can have some time for rest,right?Dear father,please give me wisdom,i wanna honor you with my whole lifetime.
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- Sad Fate
- Magical Moment
- attack音D Ring Bell
- 少年杨家将 情痴 - Ring Bell
- 水凝墨剧情 - Ring Bell
- 悬溺(笛子)
- sunflower X chemical - minlee
- 太妍、Verbal Jint - I
2023/9/27
dear diary,i will have a long-day vocation on national festival start at tommorrow.I got three to-do list for myself.That’s my task,i need to handle that shit.But it’s ok,i’m glad i can do this.I’m always growing.There is no better thing that this meaning for me.Just like the preach said that our life goal is growth not happiness.Happiness is the by-product of our growth.I realized that so many chinese are not understand what the situation they facing.I can’t do anything to help them.All the thing i can do it’s just to protect myself from this goverment.Father,plaese bless me.
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- Maybe
- Go Go Sandbox
- Sad Fate
- Magical Moment
2023/10/5
dear diary,my national vocation is ending,i will come back FuZhou tomorrow.Thank god i had great experience recently.I visited several friends and family.This is the purpose that i came back.I resolved a lot problem.but i have to face the new barrier after coming back.I need to improve my english skill and prepare for passing the IELTS.So i worry about this.However,Father told us that you don’t need to worry about the future,the strees only for daily.That’s why i always have good sleep.It all belongs to god,everything happened to me can been used to honor the father.Please bless my next way for immigration.Now i’m on the bus and glad i can live here.I’m going the TaiHe square and get my smart phone back.I wish the connection is OK that our trying is worthy.But if it can’t be well,i can finitely accept it.Never mind and complain it.Life is always becoming more and more well.
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i don’t have phone here,so No Music!!!
2023/10/07
dear diary,today i applyed the quit process.It’s hard for me to make this decision.I don’t know if it is right for doing that like this.But i know i don’t want to waste too much time on the fucking work.I shouldn’t focus on those insane people.I should strive to improve my enlish level for passing IELTS.And i got a task to finish.I have to complete the mind map for lessons recently.Review the content of class and understand how to use them.Come on,God please bless me.I wanna to stead my confidence and don’t give up.
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- I’m sorry
- Just Watching You
- Into The Time
2023/10/08
dear diary,i did the practice last night and i found that i was not enough good at listening,i gotta improve it.So i told the situation to my english teacher and she told me that i have a gift about sense of language.I hope so~But there is one thing that i only knew is i should make more practice by the tricks of making question.I pray for god that wishing i could holding on and never give up and slack.Father bless me please.
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- Closer
- Across The Ocean
- 공야 (空夜)(Lonely night)
2023/10/17
dear diary,i haven’t written the diary for several days.Now i am continu writing it.I have finished the Listening test of IELTS 16 and got a worst score.I was frustrate about it.It means that i need to do more practice for improving my english level.God please bless with me that i won’t give up and be slack about learning.I was almost adjust my life statu and finished my daily plan.Come on and achieve it!!!Never give up and keep on practicing everyday.
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- Dalparan (달파란)、Bongseok Levitating Score
- Park Won (박원) It’s you
- Boramiyu (보라미유) Oopsy
- Ending Moving Original SoundTrack
2023/10/30
dear diary,i got a long time not writing the diary,actually my learning status were not good,i get addict to play the video games or watch the TV.I became the man which i really hate.I was feel so sorry about that.I beg father to bless with me,i want to have the willpower again.Strive to my learning.You can do it.
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No Music
2024/2/18
It’s a long time for me to write diary here since octorber 30th last time.The only thing worth congradulation is i have got Band 6.5 for last IELTS test.It means i have already passed the threshold for my application of study visa and requirement of SDS way.Next step is to prepare for the proof of tuition payment.But i know that is a big problem for me.However,everything count on God.That’s the only hope for human in this world.I can do any of this through him who gives me strength.
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- Watching The Sunset(AKI Amano remix)
- Our Home
- Shadow(Valentin remix)
2026/01/23
dear diary, It’s been a long time I haven’t wrote the story of my life. I just recalled the memories of my primary school days. I was really happy at that time. Then I realized I need to record some points of my life. The experience gonna become my precious treasure. I do believe in that.
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No Music